no, im not high. :D

who would u marry? just out of randomness, if u were single and all.
if i was single and stuff i'd marry spongebob ^^ he's cute, a work-aholic and no one dies in cartoon, aka i could set myself on fire and... stuff =D

i'd be a evil one :)

i found the coolest thing.. its called ywriter, its basicly a free novel writing program, and it kicks ass.. lol its fricken amazin..

well... idk WHERE in hell to start lol. ok for first i have a daughter, not blood related, cuz her mom is.. bad.. pretty much a sex addicted whore =\. so i guess i took her in, shes 14 now and shes the sweetest lil girl i know :) i mean, breakfest in bed lol. we dont even have to ask lol. anywayz since i guess shes my daughter i dont have to worry about bein a grandma D: cuz she is NOT interested in men right now after what she's seen.
anways... uh.. her name is brittany and.. idk shes sweet tho lol. anywaaay.. uh.. hmm..
lately i've been feeling.. sick. like... un-coordinated and sick. lol. and i am kinda hopeing im pregnant, i went to check but the dumb doctor said "i'm too busy, come back next week." but i shall go tuesday.. not wensday >:D lol. anyway im kinda happy that derek is happeh too!! lol he didnt leave me or anything like some men would, and i knew he wouldnt, which is why i married him lol. cuz he rules. and about me and dereks relationship, its gotten even stronger since marriage :P like.. he KNOWS where i am all teh time without me telling him lol. but i knews he already knew that, hes smarts. lol. anyway i feel a strong bond with us, kinda like a VERY thick and unscathed rubber band lol. i put people on ropes like that alot, thinner is the least close and thicker is the more close.. :)
anyway im so fricken happy!!! and i hope its a boy :D lol and of course derek hopes its a girl :p but i hope its a boy cuz.. then i could call him my lil man :p lol. dereks my man tho. but i could still call teh girl lil mama :p lol im so weird.. and now im talking to myself.
and btw my hair, used to be like all the way past my butt, i has cut it :p it is now like shoulder legnth.. lol. not much more to say. but.. i wish i could dance with yuall but.. might have a baby in me, so imma wait til HE is out to dance with him lol :D

better vid then my last post...

i've been thinking, alot, about....... everything and i cant stop.
i think about "god" even tho i dont beleive him.
i thought about girls (yes, im interested in girls lol)
i thought about my sexy derek, my husband.
i thought about people.
i thought about satan
i thought about evil
i thought about good.

my theory is that satan isnt evil, he is the god that governs death. death is the one to deliver it.
satan commands evil things, yet himself not evil in my opinion.
if anyone wants to see true evil, look at humans, look at their greed and dishonourble ways.
japan is honourble tho, no crime, little greed.... happiness.
america holds greed, hate, coveting, filthy slobs. rarely, if any, would give their life for another. japanese people would, im sure they'd rather stay alive but they give it anyways.

i think demons are real, little are good, most are evil. demons are true evil out there, waiting to tear this world to pieces starting with the human race. then animals. then plants.

angles are real, most are good, some are evil (dark angles) they will try to defend all they can.

now for god himself.
i think he has no feelings, just right and wrong is all that he thinks of, no love, no hate. just pure amusment at watching humans move about. silently picking who goes to paradise, beneath paradise, and to hell. paradise is also known as heaven, beneath paradise is being a ghost on earth or reicarnation. and hell, hell is a desert of misery for those who inflicted numorous misery. they will suffer a set amout of years.
one lie is a month
one crime is a decade
one kill is a centry
and ect.

i think openly about things, in my own religon, homosexual people can marry, i dont veiw it as "unnatural" i veiw it as different and un-alike. somthing that isnt as often as what many refer to as "normal" "or straight" i prefer to say heterosexual. who dare say two human beings who love each other may not show it publicly in marriage? whether it be man on man or woman on woman or woman on man, its all the same! two people making love. why shouldnt it be allowed? is it a sin to the christan god? are they an abomanation because they sleep with the same gender? they should be forced to suffer because they loved someone who is the same sex?
i dont care if it is a sin, it should be allowed. u can think hatefully of them but you dont have to openly do somthing about it, its like the KKK. those people who act all bad-ass and have kkk tatoos. just..... wtf! why do you hate someone because of a color?
if you have an answer please, i beg you, tell me.

THE yngwie.. ying bay is how u say it.
the best gutair solo i ever heard... its fricken nuts

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haha!! kidnap mr sandy claws, by danny elfman, i dont think its a band but he makes songs for movies lol hes pretty cool. go shock lock and barrel :D... i hope my kids are like them lol, good team and good ideas.....

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marlyn manson O.o fuckin awesome but he scares me.. brr... i love this song, i sing it alot lol

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who dosent know him?! hes fuckin awesome lol, ozzy osborn..... again kinda hot..... lol..... anyways i've been listening to this song since before some people were born so :P

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lol slipknot of course, as always. the lead singer is also hot, but kinda in an older kinda guy way :P

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scream aim fire by bullet for my valentine... the lead singer is hot. and its also on gutair hero world tour :P

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funny :D really funny, its old and silly but hey, if i could be in that crown i'd be jumpin around and stuff and stuff, i hate rap but damn lol i like these guys

how is he a virgin?!

omg!! hes sooo hot! i just wanna... you know.... cuddle with him lol.. hes a funny guy, and cute. but dereks hotter, nicer, and i know him soooo...... nooo dawson babies for me lol. i'll stick with derek, as always lol. but i do admit i would date butterscotch
me +butterscotch candy= 10000000 babies lol